i whine

[Originally posted on my old moblog site. Republishing here now.]

I quote naijiz: "When Jac sees a doctor, she must be so sick to the point where she thinks she's gonna die type." I usually have to be dragged to the doctor's. Number 1 reason being I think it's a waste of money. In most cases, I can diagnose my flu and self medicate.

It becomes another story when my throat is all red and swollen and talking becomes too painful (and I'm known for having a high pain threshold). When the infection reaches the stomach and causes you to spew. So I've got no choice but to run to the doc for antibiotics and some anti-vomit meds this time. Consultation alone was AUD45. Medicine was another AUD65.

I miss home the most when I'm this sick. My flat in Simei has a clinic just 3min walk away. Here in Sydney, I can't get to any clinic without a car. And there is no Mama here to take me.

No Mama here to cook porridge for me and remind me to take my medicine too. I've got no energy to cook anything so I survived yesterday on bread. But now that I'm spewing out everything I eat, I guess I can do without food for the time being.

Being the proud independent person I am, I most certainly don't ask for help unless absolutely necessary. I'll drive myself to the clinic if I have a car and run the risk of getting into an accident (when you're sick, you usually can't concentrate very well) which I think is a very irresponsible act, or take a taxi. I definitely cannot walk very far in my sick state. I'll make do with the rubbish food I have in the fridge or grab some instant porridge from the convenience store just downstairs. I'll set alarm to remind me of medication time. And whine online how shittty I feel and how much I wish I have someone to take care of me here.